studying abroad....

u know that i love to write...
but it's been a while since the last time i wrote to anyone...
the only reason i'm still contacting people is because i have a mode/way.... that is by having friendster account...
that's the only reason i can still in touch with people who i once closed too... but not anymore..

why?
because we went our different path la....
at times i just feel so bloody bad as there are few thing in life that i want to do, but still cannot achieve it....
i wanna dance again, as i get my rhythym back....

i wanna study abroad...
this is still one of the nightmares i got once in a while now (back then it came every single nights!).
worst still... i cant get over it.
whenever i think bout my friends who actually got the chances to go... i feel so envi-ous. even my skin has turned green at times.
whenever i met my friends who came back for holidays, i feel like something inside me just wanna burst and out come the wings that will take me far away from here... from where i stand on.. i settle for new zealand or OZ....
whatever the reason is... i just wanna be somewhere else beside this d*#^% place....

the only reason why i am still here is because.....
it's here that i have a lot of people who are willing to do anything to stop me from leaving...
it's here that i wanna have fun at...
it's here that i have cherish every single moments, even everything seems so dramatic and lousy...
it's here the place i still can get everything my heart desire...
my one true place where i can find.........................

LOVE......

whever i want it... whatever the reason....

i still can come back home and just hug the one i truly love....

this place never betrayed me....

on this spot of the earth i found my one true love which i pray everyday and everynight that he will be the one who JAGA me..... (on the very same place)

this is where... my family are...

they are here, waiting at every corner to boost up my courage and make strong, that is possible for me to go no matter where i wanna go....

they will always be here... no matter what....

this where... my friends are...

they are here, to whom i share my laughter with.....

to them, i have fun...

with them, we grow up together.. in this weird, cold, cruel world....

so in the end... i dont feel so bad after all..

there must be some reason, ALLAH let me stay here, on HIS land..

it's because HE wants me to think....

to be grateful...

that i have everything, i could bargained for.... =)